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Red doesn't always mean war: Pig-outs and more

Mon, 04 May 2009 16:03:41 GMT

QUOTE OF [SOME] DAY:

Person A: Si [ano] tsaka si [ano], naging sila diba, or something?
Person B&C, simultaneously: Something.

Tsk tsk, love and relationships. Oh, it's complicated.

Una sa lahat, I hate myself. I was writing this reaallly reaaaalllly long entry and then I closed Firefox. What the hell, Helenay. Haha. Pero dahil matagal na akong hindi nagsusulat dulot ng wala na akong drive magblog, fine. Ganun yata talaga pag may social life, di makapagblog. Sobrang busy ko kasi lately, yung level na malalagay na ako sa society page ng lifestyle mags. Chika lang. Haha.

Where I have been this past few days, I don't even remember very much anymore. Ang alam ko lang, it was mostly comprised of pig-outs. Eew. Sinimulan kasi to ni Joy, nang bigla na lang akong sunduin one depressing rainy day at sinabi saking "Mar kain tayo". Nag-stress/depression-induced binge eating kami sa Pizza Hut, and I tell you, pig-out session talaga. Kain kami nang kain dun for three hours and we weren't aware how much we were eating until we asked for the bill... "Your bill is 800, maam." I mean, imagine? It was just Pizza Hut and it was just the two of us and we had to pay 800. Ang intense. Eh pag kumakain kami dun ng mga kapatid ko di nga umaabot ng 800 eh. Oh well. Maybe it's just because of Joy. Tuwing kasama ko kaya siya napapalamon ako. Hahaha.

Pero okay lang. Yung pagkain-kain sa labas, parang naging International Pig-Out Marathon. Kahapon Italian, ngayon Chinese, mamaya Japanese, bukas Mongolian, sa susunod na araw French, tapos Vietnamese, Indonesian, magiging Scottish tapos Finnish tapos Rwandan at Swazilander (is there such thing as Swazilander???). Kaya lagi na lang akong kumakain -- from the never-ending family dinners, to late birthday blow-outs, to random fulfillments of cravings, and to, just recently, high school council reunion meetings... to more family dinners, impulsive tara-kain-tayo-somewhere phenomena and wala-lang-gutom-lang-ako lamon days, di na ko natapos kakanguya.

Ngunit kahit masayang kumain, favorite ko pa rin sa lahat ang aming Red Box afternoon. Honestly, hindi ako videoke person. Hindi man lang nga ako makakanta ng isang buong kanta to save my life. More often than not, maligaya na ako sa isang linya lang. At hindi kasi ako kumakanta kapag may microphone due to my unlikely shyness. Eh basta ba, sa shower lang ako magaling kumanta eh. Hahaha. Pero iba tong Red Box. Sa 19 years++ ng buhay ko, 2nd time pa lang talaga to na kumanta ako sa videoke (at almost nagwild!). It might be the enclosed space, or whatever. Basta ang alam ko, Red Box na ang favorite place ko in the world next to my bed. Shet, naadik ako. Mamaya nga pupunta ulit kaming Red Box eh =)

Papalagpasin ba naman namin si Roselle Nava?
Eh bakit nga ba kasi mahal kita?

Three's a crowd, kaya sinama na lang namin si Keps. Hahaha.
Nakita namin siyang nag-aaral sa Starbucks Trinoma dahil may exam siya kinabukasan but kebs, sinama pa rin namin siya. Para hindi na crowd. lol.

May recorded videos pa kami ng mga kinanta namin kaso nakakahiya na. HAHA. Not for the world to see.

All photos in the entry are from Che-che's Multiply.

Wala ka sa Lolo ko

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 14:36:53 GMT

The best part about family gatherings is, well, the gathering. The worst part would be discovering that your relatives read your blog, but here's an entry nonetheless.

April 18-19 was Bicol weekend. It was kinda stressful because it hasn't been one week then since we went to Bicol, then there we were again. Travel hours reach 12 hours when we're extremely out of luck, but a lucky 7-hour trip is still a pain in the ass.

So anyway, what is up in Bicol, you may ask? Well, it was my lolo's 90th birthday! I didn't want to go at first really, but you know what happened eventually. Like a lot of other people who went to the event, we were under the assumption "baka last [birthday] na 'to." Very cruel family members, yes we are. So ta-daaa!!!! People-filled it was.

This lolo is Itay Pedro, my father's father. To be really honest, this isn't the side of the family I'm fond of. They're not really the group of people I hang out a lot with, but it's probably because I never really try. And also because it's a really big family. My dad has 13 siblings, though 3 of them are dead already, which makes them 11. But still, they are still eleven, and eleven is about 3 times as much as my other grandparents' children. Which makes this side of the family at least 3 times bigger than the other one, hence everyone is more or less hardly remembered.

Anyway, something about my lolo besides having 14 children: he's a war veteran. He's actually one of the Filipino guerillas who fought against the Japanese during the second World War. He was there in the real actual deadly Death March! You know, the Death March is called Death March for a reason, and if you survived it, it's just pure awesomeness!!! [Greetings to Jack Black ] And you know when the Japanese soldiers really liked randomly slashing Filipinos using their bayonets or something, my lolo was one of their victims. And it's totally cool because he still has the marks of the bayonet wound somewhere around his belly. He's practically a living legend. Pure awesomeness.

So the party was surprisingly fun -- not that I expected it to be not fun, but I didn't expect myself to have fun. There's a difference. It was nice to see long lost cousins and nephews and nieces who happen to be older than me but yeah, what the hell. I enjoyed learning how my grandparents were like as parents through the short speeches of some sort that my uncles and aunts gave (not all 11of them, btw!). My lolo is so scary! I wouldn't want him as a dad even in the coming lifetimes of my soul; he was one freaking hell of a dictator dad. But I think that's cool as long as I'm not his child hahaha And it's really funny when some person is saying something to him and then he ends up falling asleep or suddenly is gone to wiwi break.

Amazing thing: we were all wearing the same shirt. I would want to have my face printed in a shirt too and have people wear it on my birthday. That would be really, really fabulous.

Epic Shirt
'Cause in Bicol, that's the way they like it.

Itay blowing the candle!
It's amazing that he was still able to release enough air for this,
I thought he was too old for that.
Xs: I took this picture, I think it's really nice

L-R: My lolo's brother or something-I'm not sure-it's complicated, my father, and my lolo.
or R-L: the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly; at least according to my dad.

Some sort of family picture :3

They call us the 1st generation grandchildren, but I don't understand what 2nd degree would be. But I think that's jut half of us, we split up since we're a really large bunch. I'm not even entirely sure who that kid beside me is, sorry kid.

Why I'm never decent in the presence of food -
it's The Felizmenio Way. Hahahaha

Old times' sake

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 10:08:13 GMT

Bago ang lahat,

Moving on...

I haven't got the time to blog lately, for some reason. Medyo nakakalungkot, but what can I do. I'm not so much into the Internet lately, besides the perpetual torrent downloads. Eh basta ba, tinatamad lang akong gumawa ng kahit ano.

April 17 was supposedly RedBox night (at happy birthday Darell Navaja :D). Pero si Kim Lagunilla kasi ang hilig mag-absent eh. Konti na lang talaga masisingko na sakin yan. Charing. Eh kasi wala siya last Friday, kaya yung RedBox night, nauwi sa cawhoring sa McDo Katips ng barcode minus 1. Pero okay lang, fun pa rin naman. Hindi siguro kasing fun kung kumpleto at nasa RedBox kami, pero well, we were sober. If you know what I mean.

Nothing much has changed. Fries pa rin ang kinakain ni Iven at hindi pa rin siya naglalagay ng catsup. Or maybe much has changed, I just can't seem to put my hands into them. Siguro isa na dun ang healthier food choices. I knooow, McDo pa rin siya at fastfood siya at kahit kailan ay hindi siya magiging healthy kahit magkatuluyan pa si Ronald McDonald at Jollibee pero at least may efforts na para bawasan ang red meat consumption. Yung dating cheeseburger meals namin ni Che-Che, naging Filet-O-Fish at McChicken burger (or something, basta yung maraming gulay) na. At marami pang iba. (O see, I can't put my hands into them!)

Camwhoring na nga lang pag-usapan natin. Hahaha. Si Iven kasi kahit kelan hindi magaling magmukhang tanga sa picture. E yung sobrang pangit na namin ni Che-Che, ang ganda-ganda pa rin niya. Kakainis. With Iven around, ang pangit lang talaga namin lagi. Oh well. Hahaha. Photospam ahead.

E yung namiss ko kayo! :)

Sana next time apat na kami sa pictures! Kim Lagunilla, where art thou.

Photos from Che-Che's Multiply.

Start your summer right

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 15:46:37 GMT

I'm now officially on vacation. Yay.

Pero bago ang lahat, nalost ako sa sarili kong blog. Bago na ang URL niya! Hindi na siya http://www.xanga.com/marielfelizmenio, http://www.marielfelizmenio.xanga.com na siya. :)

Naisip ko lang ano, parang mas fun ang sem break kesa summer break? Kasi yung sem break, well BREAK talaga siya. E siyempre choice ko naman talaga kung mag-aaral ako pag summer o hindi, at pinipili kong mag-aral kasi diligent ako. Chika lang. Boring kasi kapag summer. Kasi tinigilan ko na ang mga pagtatangka ko na mag-endeavor ng kung anu-anong bagay na hindi naman nagbubunga (i.e. TaeKwonDo classes, summer 2002. In all fairness to me ay napromote naman ako into a yellow belter, pero after that wala nang nangyari sakin. Mahilig pa rin ako sumipa, though.) So dahil hindi na nga ako nagttry na magtake ng whatever classes, summer classes na lang. Makakabawas na sa regular load, fun pa, may baon pa! O san ka pa?

Anyway. The first two days of my summer "vacation" have been spent reuniting with old friends. Aminin natin, sa isang sem, pare-parehong mukha lang talaga makikita mo. Wala naman akong galit sa mga mukha nila (hi friends) pero siyempre it's always nice to see old friends for old times' sake. At literal na old times' sake ito, kasi sobrang nagreminisce lang kami ng mga bagay bagay na naganap sa nakaraan.

Day 1 is Tengga Day. May ritwal kami ni Joy at Kepi (na last summer lang nagsimula yata, actually) na pagkatapos ng isang academic term, pig-out ang drama namin. Last summer, pagkatapos ng 2nd exam sa Psych 195 at around 3 pm, nagpunta kaming McDo Philcoa at nagstay kami dun hanggang 8 PM. Wala naman kaming ginawang mabuti para tumagal nang ganun sa isang McDonald's branch, pero wala kasing tao masyado at maulan nun. Kaya naglaughtrip ever na lang kami. Last sem, nagdramarama kami sa Shakey's Katips over lunch bilang innjan kami ni Carlo. At ngayong sem, tengga ever ang tema ng pagstay namin sa TechnoHub.

Kumain kami sa Yellow Cab pero bago yun ay hinintay muna namin na nang gabengga si Joy. Isa't kalahating oras namin siyang hinintay! Kaya ang dami naming nakain ni Kepi kasi kain na kami nang kain habang hinintay ang mabagal na si Joy. Kaya pig-out session talaga. Pagkakain namin sa Yellow Cab, for some reason, nagpunta pa kaming KFC. Kaya pig-out session talaga! Nakita pa namin si Pia na nagpapakadiligent. After all these months, noon lang kami nakapag-usap ni Pia! Eventually, nagdecide si Pia na umuwi na lang dahil masyado ata siyang nadistract sa aming presence. Tapos kami, nagpuntang TimeZone at nagrelease ng stress sa mga bayolenteng games dun (tulad ng Pang-Pang Paradise na inosente by nature pero ang sarap paglabasan ng aggression. Sumakit tuloy braso ko!) At dahil napagod kami sa TimeZone, umalis rin kami at umupo sa labas ng KFC at tumengga hanggang gumabi na. Ang okay kasi sa dalawang to, lahat ng bagay pwedeng pag-usapan - from gossip, to chick flicks, academics, and politics. Kaya inaabot talaga ng gabi mga kwentuhan namin kasi lahat ng aspeto ng buhay naeexplore.

Day 2 is Tawa Day. Nagkita kami ni Mia at Che-Che a little after luch to do something for another friend, tapos nagpasama ako sa mga bagay na kailangan kong gawin, na actually, hindi ko naman pinagtagumpayan. Hahaha. The best part is, kahit hindi namin napuntahan yung mismong kinakainan namin ng fishball nung unang panahon aka 2004, nakahanap naman kami ng ibang tindahan na may upuan na kahit pano... disente. At yun na ang walang katapusang pag-alala sa mga nakakatawang kaganapan nung high school na hindi dapat binabanggit sa blog.

Nakakatuwa kasi yung mga usapan namin, apparently, may structure.

Uy kumusta na pala si *insert name of batchmate here*?
Ganito, ganyan, blah blah.
Eh diba dati, ganito ganyan blah blah.
Oo nga blah blah blah.
...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Basta ganyan, kukumustahin si ganyan, pero eventually, inaaalala rin ang nakaraan, tapos tatawanan. Ang harsh. Nakakatawa kasi lahat ng tao, kahit wala naman ginawang masama o significantly nakakatawa, mahahanapan at mahahanapan ng baho. Ahahahaha. Minsan naiisip ko masyadong marahas ang pastime namin, pero alam ko kasing pastime rin to ng ibang tao. Kanya-kanyang oras lang yan.

Naniniwala akong this is a nice start to my summer, kahit diyan-diyan lang naman siya naganap. Haha e bat ba nakakatamad pang magpakalayu-layo and besides may summer reg pa!!! Pero dahil last summer vacation ko na bilang undergrad *CRY*, I promise to make whatever I can make out of it. Idedevelop ko ang social component ng aking socially-deprived life. So summer, here I cooooooooome!!!!!

P.S. Pictures to follow. I hope!

Smart is the new sexy

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 10:12:30 GMT

So I'm three weeks away from officially ending school. Though technically, that would be just ending the school year, because barely a week after my last day would be the start of registration for the summer term so there will be school once more. I, however, might, more or less, not enroll during the summer term, so it would be fairly accurate for me to say that three weeks from now, school will temporarily halt. Though again, yes, I will be serving for the registrar during the summer registration, that's not exactly school. It's really work -- which happens in school. But that still doesn't make it school work, so what's the point. [If anybody was able to follow that train of thought, please tell me].

Anwyay. Since it's the end of the sem again, I wanna talk about... uh, boys. But then my inner voice says, "I'm sorry, talk about what?". So k, never mind. I'm not very good at it and there's no one to talk about anyway.

No, seriously. I have to tell you something. So there's this person, whose identity I conceal by the name Person B. Person B, for those who are unaware, is that boy whom I have had a crazy crush on since last year. He's been the topic of countless blog entries and conversations, online and offline alike... uh, I don't think I need to describe - just think of how crazy you were during your craziest in crush phase and that's probably more or less like it. Well to keep it short, let's just say that he's that one ideal guy who lives in Dreamland but accidentally fell off a well whose other end is a classroom in UP. Cause he's just so perfect for me -- the operative phrase being "for me", since my choice in guys is apparently... tasteless. Well the point is I was so crazy I wanted to marry him. And I got so crazier that I stalked him, albeit on-line only. Heehee. The intensity of the crush was because he seemed so smart. Not the nerdy, geeky sort of smart (no offense to nerds), more like the street smart, witty smart kind. Well, he is. And I still believe in that. I think.

However, working for the university registrar, access to student records, and very strong stalking tendencies is an extremely dangerous combination. So you know what I did. I saw his records (let's just say I didn't look for the records, they were just... lying around) , and they weren't very pleasing. Frankly, I think a better description for his academic records would be, they were very, very disturbing - to the point of disgust, honestly. UGH. I mean, yeah academic records mean shit in the greater scheme of things, but records carry with them a certain impressionistic value. One or two 5's or DRP's or INC's wouldn't have been so bad, but my god, I didn't even have the time to count his bad grades. Imagine. And just imagine how I felt. I stalked this allegedly perfect guy for months, thinking that he's smart, clouded by all my biases, only to know 10 months later that the "smartness" I was so crazy about doesn't exactly hold. So... that's a little sadness on my part. [I could have actually skipped the whole episode had I decided to use my better judgment and not look at his records... but it's kind of a compulsion. And I am sorry for that. If it's any consolation, I don't do that to other students, it's only Person B's student number that I know and I've memorized. Cause I'm obsessed like that.]

Luckily, I have a new crush!!!! This one, I'm sure he's smart. Just that he's a little too quiet and he doesn't possess that magic in word usage and wit that Person B has since he barely speaks anyway. But so far, I have not stalked this person because one of my resolutions in life is to be a little less creepy. And I want it to remain a happy crush. And I'm honestly tired of being creepy, haha. And I don't want to talk a lot about this person because... I don't know. I just don't want to, it seems. I don't know if it it's relevant to the situation but he was born in 1991. I can't figure out how that is relevant, in any case. It just feels strange when I learn that people are born in the 90s even though I myself was born nearly a month before 1990.

And since we're on the smart guy thingy anyway, why don't we talk about really smart guys?? Because SMART IS THE NEW SEXY! So let me tell you about my new favorite American series, The Big Bang Theory!

Created by writer/producers Chuck Lorre (of Two and a Half Men) and Bill Prady (of Gilmore Girls) comes The Big Bang Theory, a sitcom that shows what happens when hyperintelligent roommates/physicists Sheldon and Leonard meet Penny, a beautiful woman moving in next door--and realize they know next to nothing about life outside of the lab. Rounding out the crew are the smarmy Wolowitz, who thinks he's as sexy as he is brainy, and Koothrappali, who suffers from an inability to speak in the presence of a woman. The show distinguishes itself by being unafraid to toss scientific references and technobabble into an otherwise standard sitcom, even employing a physicist to keep things accurate. In doing so, it allows Sheldon and Leonard to do for science what Frasier's Crane brothers did for fine dining, art, and opera. (source: www.tv.com)

My favorite character would be Sheldon Cooper (Jim Parsons), cause he's the ultimate geek! He's a theoretical physicist, stereotypically socially backward, has two Ph.D.'s, an MA, and was accelerated from fifth grade to college! At age 11! Intense! Hahahahaha!

My favorite Sheldon scene:
Penny: (ranting about her jerk ex-boyfriend) I lived with him for four years! It was like as long as high school!
Sheldon: It took you four years to get through high school?

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Sheldon, people normally take four years in high school!! Oh Sheldon, I just love you.

Stress-induced Fatness

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 16:38:52 GMT

Hell week ko last week.

Ang dami ko kasing kailangang gawin, tapos natambak sila.

Pano, the weekend before, wala rin ako masyadong nagawa. Friday night, nagpahinga ako from the haggardoversoza-ness of the election season. Saturday morning, as usual, nagturo ako. Saturday afternoon, nagbiyahe kami ng pamilya ko papuntang Bicol, with as many stop-overs possible. Dumaan pa kami ng SM Supercenter Pasig para bumili ng Globe Mobile Broadband para may magamit na Internet sa Bicol, although 5 days later di na rin siya gumana. Pagdating sa Bicol I tried working on the 162 data, sabi ko hindi ako matutulog all night in an attempt to be a diligent student. Nakatulog din ako at around 5 AM, which goes to show na hindi talaga ako diligent at hindi ko na nagawang magpanggap pa. Therefore, di ko natapos yung ginagawa ko. Paggising ko ng mga 9 AM, nagkakagulo na sa bahay kasi birthday ng Lola ko. Hanggang lunch na yun. Balak ko sana magtrabaho after lunch, pero habang matahimik kong tinatangkang simulan ang paper para sa Psych 155, nahila ako ng pinsan ko papunta sa CWC. Umuwi kami gabi na, diretsong balik na sa Manila. Hassle.

(photos at Multiply)

But wait, there’s more. Pagdating ko sa Manila, syempre natulog muna ako. Nagawa ko pang manood ng Fight Club pero hindi ko na naman natapos for the nth time. Ang ganda sana ng Fight Club pero pag climax na bigla na lang kakainin na naman ako ng konsensiya ko, so matitigilan ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinatunguhan ng Monday ko, basta nung gabi, pumunta ako sa victory party ng KAISA. Kapal lang ng mukha ko. Hahaha.

(photos at Multiply; some photos from Jenny Flor)

Kaya sila natambak. Hindi ko naman pinagsisihan ang ginawa ko kasi nag-enjoy naman ako talaga at bihira lang yun mangyari. Yung birthday ng Lola ko, for example, 86^th niya na kasi yun at feeling ng marami ay last na yun. Alam kong ang harsh nun, pero mabuti na kasing ready. Eh basta, that’s another story.

Ngunit higit sa lahat, ang point ng entry na ito ay, I GAINED 6 POUNDS during my hell week. This goes to show that weight gain is stress-induced - at least for me. Which brings me to the main point of this entry that is, ang payat ko nung first year. As innnn. Walang kalaman-laman yung baba ko! Yun talaga yung napapansin ko e, ang payat ng baba ko! Hahahaha!

Or it might just be the strange long hair. Hmmm.

At kaya habang tumatagal ay lalo akong tumataba, ay dahil habang tumatagal ay bumibigat ang workload at academic stress. E nung first year naman kasi, tig-15 units na nga lang ako, nagpakadelinkwente pa ko. So stress-free talaga, kasi wala akong ginagawa. Naalala ko yung freshman days ko, kapag hapon minsan sumasama pa ako kay AM sa Manila, or nagpupunta kami ni Pat somewhere, or tumatambay kami ni Joy for hours on end after class. E ngayon… HUHUHU. It is a weekly cycle of life and death.

Hell week na naman next week. At heto na naman ako, nagbblog. Mabuhay ang UP students.

After all

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 01:49:42 GMT

So... my blog's been getting a lot of Titus Tan hits. Maraming stalker si Titus! CONGRATULATIONS Titus Tan! Congratulations KAISA!

In all due fairness, kahit hinila lang ako ni Gabby sa KAISA, nag-enjoy ako as in. Ang saya promise. I don't know if it's just me, pero ang fun maging politically involved. Or maybe it's just because we won. Well, not really won, since my candidate didn't actually win, pero parang na-attach ako sa KAISA? Hahaha kasi the party's at par with STAND-UP now when it comes to number of people in the council, so parang the whole party won na rin. And the standard bearer won, so yun nga, masaya na rin lahat. Thinking na 4th year pa lang ng KAISA at super fetus pa lang siya relative to to the other parties, sobrang significant victory na to. Dahil nagtagumpay tayo sa ating laban upang buuin ang UP Diliman! Chika lang. Di ko lang kasi matranslate, ang nais ko sanang sabihin ay, "we won in our struggle in sort of uniting the student body" ganyan. Ay basta I can't express my thoughts. Haha

O, stalkers, gusto niyo ng picture ni Titus Tan?

HAHAHAHAHAHA
CHIKA LAAAAAAANG!
HAHAHAHAHA

Alam niyo, si Titus, kahit cute, charismatic, at napakagaling lang talaga niyang tao, napakahumble niya. Naniniwala akong nanalo siya dahil nagtiwala sa kanya ang UP, at hindi dahil cute siya. Kung may nagsasabing nanalo si Titus dahil pacute siya, well ang akin lang ay hindi siya pacute. Cute lang talaga siya, no need to make pacute. Kung feel niyo pacute siya, edi na-cute-an rin kayo sa kanya! Aminin!!! Haha but seriously, ang laki ng 1600 margin kung dahil lang sa pacute siya. UP students aren't that dumb. Though it has been supported in a study that looks really do matter in such kinds of electoral campaign, we have to remind ourselves that we're not plain intuitive beings. In all due fairness to STAND UP, cute rin naman si Airah. Maganda siya actually, tsaka magaling magsalita. Tsaka magaling rin talaga siya probably, probably lang kasi di ko naman siya kilala personally and I used to be really apolitical so I don't know her. But UP must be really tired of traditional red vs. blue politics. The student body is giving yellow a chance. Uso yata talaga ang Obama ideologies... CHANGE. Nakanaman. So good luck to KAISA in proving that change can be done, YES WE CAN. HAHAHA

And no, my statements do not necessarily reflect any of KAISA's ideologies or statements. It's just me and my sleep-deprived brain. So forgive me. And for the record, hindi ako kabilang sa mga may crush kay Titus Tan. Pang-coucilor level lang kasi ako. Si ano kasi yung crush ko. Chika. Chika minute.

Anyway, ano bang point ng entry na ito. I'm so sabaw today. Speaking of stalkers kasi, matagal na akong hindi nagchecheck ng feedback log ng blog kong ito. Nakakatamad kasi at busy ako e. Charing. Pero ito kasi, I checked my log kanina, at ang kaya lang naman niyang ipakita sa akin ay ang logs sa lumipas na apat na araw. At ang tumataginting na sumalubong sa akin ay ang pagkarami-raming "Titus Tan" google searches! E mga friends, hindi naman kami close ni Titus Tan. Ikinampanya ko lang siya sa isa sa aking blog entries bilang KAISA campaign support keme nga ako this year. So I'm sorry to disappoint you people. Kung gusto niyo... uuyyy may alternative. Wala, wala akong sasabihin! Ano ba kayo, kung magsstalk kayo, stalk harder! Mas fulfilling kung kayo mismo ang nakakahanap at nakakaalam ng mga bagay-bagay about your crushes. Naaalala ko yung weirdest eureka moment ko about the crush of my life, naliligo ako nun. Hahaha. Yung bigla ko na lang napag-dugtong-dugtong yung aking data. Hahahaha. O, sorry na crush. Feel ko naman alam mo na e. Pero di mo naman to mababasa. So whatever. Whatever to you!!!! Alam mo crush of my life, kapag nadadaan ko yung pictures mo sa aking "random people" pictures folder [yes it hurts, pero random person ka na lang hahaha], I find myself strangely saying "Sorry na!!!". Parang may konsensiya factor. Kaya people, stop stalking... online. Stalk them in the physical world, mag-effort kayo! Dahil diyan niyo lang maipapakita ang tunay na pagmamahal. Hahahaha pero yan ay kung magpapakita kayo. E ano pa't stalker kayo kung magpapakita kayo. So wala akong sense.

At bukod kay Titus, may hits din ako na mula sa google searches na Patriz Dumlao at Tonton Clemente. Di ko alam kung may stalker si Pat o sinearch niya ang sarili niya, pero kebs. Uyy si Pat na-kyoryus. Si Sir Ton medyo maraming nagsearch sa kanya, dulot siguro yun ng pagkapanalo sa Game KNB. Hahaha. Uyy hihingi sila ng balato. Haha

Ay may isheshare ako. Nakakatawa kasi hahaha.

Si Kuya kasi, kasama ko sa McDo kanina. Pumunta kami dun nang sobrang aga because we don't have a decent internet connection at home and we had to do something. So nag-Plurk kami. Nakakatawa kasi pagkapost ko ng Plurk ko, sabi ko, "Gago ka bat mo ginaya Plurk ko!". Sabi niya, "Ikaw kaya gumaya!". And the point is magkamukha yung plurks namin. Walang nanggaya or whatever, kasi halos sabay lang talaga siya at pinag-aawayan talaga namin kung sinong nauna. Pero dahil hindi namin maresolve, sabi ko pag-awayan na lang namin kung sino yung may tamang preposition. Hahahaha e di nanalo ako! Hahahaha

Ay grabe ang tagal kong hindi nakapagpost ng ganitong klaseng blog entry. Yung walang kwenta ba. Hahahaha. Siguro nagkakaroon na ako ng substance bilang tao, minsan na lang ako maulul. At sorry naman for code-switching, I have a coňo heart e. Haha

Is destiny a game? Or is game the destiny?

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 14:14:51 GMT

Lahat ng tao may pangarap. Lahat ng tao, at some point in their childhood, nakaisip ng isang bagay na pinaniwalaan nilang patutunguhan ng buhay nila. Or probably, at the very least, everyone dreamt of something when they were younger. Yung mga babae gustong maging prinsesa, yung mga lalaki gustong maging astronaut. Merong mga bata na ang gusto ay maging artista o model o beauty queen, meron namang iba na gusto lang makakain ng fried chicken with Papa catsup sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos. Yung mga ganung klaseng pangarap na hindi naman talaga na-a-outgrow. Yung mga ganung klaseng pangarap na kahit nakapili ka na ng career mo, halimbawa teacher o doctor o accountant ka na, pero at the end of the day, you’ll always look forward to the fulfillment of that one unforgettable childhood fantasy.

A lot of people find it odd that my childhood fantasy is to join a TV game show. Siguro medyo matanda na ako nun para ituring ko pa itong childhood dream, I was 11 then. However, that’s the earliest real goal in life I ever had. Wala pa ako noong konsepto ng career and such, pero that certain day na ipinalabas ang pilot episode ng Game KNB? noong 2001, I knew just then that someday I would be in that show. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko ma-figure out kung bakit. Pero hindi ko man alam ang dahilan, eh okay lang, most of the time naman human beings are not aware of why they do the things they do. Halimbawa, what is the meaning of life? Walang nakakaalam ng tamang sagot, pero we go on living. Ganyan. Ay ano ba yun, filler sentence.

So let’s go back to the game show. Ayun nga, bata pa lang ako, gusto ko nang sumali sa game show na yun. Kaya lang, since I was just 11 years old, hindi pa ako pwedeng sumali bilang underage pa nga ako. Game shows require their players to be at least of legal age, probably for the purposes of easier transactions when it comes to winning. Grabe, can you imagine the agony of the 11-year old me? I had to be 18 to be able to join that damn game show. I was 11, and hence I had to wait for 7 years. 7 YEARS!

Ngayon, 19 na ako. Hindi ko alam kung mahal lang ba talaga ako ng tadhana kaya nageexist pa rin ang show, o kung yun lang talaga ang tadhana ko kaya hinihintay ako nung show bago ito mabuwag. Naka-ilang palit na ng format ang show, naka-ilang host, time slot at title na, but the essentials of the show remained. Game KNB? pa rin siya. At ako, bagamat higit kalahating dekada na ang lumipas, game na game pa rin ako.

Nung 17 years old ako, nagkaroon ako ng chance sumali sa 1 vs. 100. Nakapanood kasi ako ng isang episode nung foreign version, at fun talaga siya! Hoping na makakasali ako, nagregister ako through text nung nakabili ang ABS-CBN ng rights. For fun lang, since hindi rin ako makapagregister for GKNB since at that time ay hindi yata sila nagsscreen for new players. I wasn’t exactly expecting na parang matatanggap ako kasi nga yung show ay para lamang sa mga 18-year old pataas. Oddly, I was invited to the screening though I was only 17 years old. Ang nakakairita dyan, yung age ko rin yata ang naging dahilan kung bakit hindi ako nakapasok. Nakakabwisit, sana hindi na lang ako pinag-screening.

That was more than a year ago. This year, nagregister na ako for GKNB since 1) I'm of age already and 2) over na ako sa bitterness and resentment na pinagdaanan ko nung sumali ako sa 1 vs 100. So ayan, masaya, may rainbows at butterflies sa paligid at humuhuni ang mga ibon oras-oras na para bang may dalang pag-asa ang bagong umaga. In other words, tahimik ang buhay. Normal lang. The other day habang nasa Vargas Museum ang Span class ko upang tingnan ang Sarsuwela exhibition, bigla na lang nagtext sa kin ang ABS-CBN Interactive ng screening invitation: "Hi, this is Aida B. Gonzales of Pilipinas, Game KNB? & u have been pre-selected via electronic raffle thru ABSCBN Intercative. You're scheduled 4 a SCREENING/EXAM on Wednesday, FEBRUARY 19, 9 am. Proceed at the ABSCBN Center Road gate, Mo. Ignacia St., QC. Pls bring valid id's & ballpen. Reply wid FULL NAME to confirm attendance. To ensure validity of this msg, pls feel free to call ABS-CBN @ (02)415-2272. Thank u very much! :)"

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And they were all yellow.

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 12:28:37 GMT

Gabby Valbuena for USC councilor!

Gabby, Gabby, Gabby V! Serbisyo araw man o gabi!
Wahahahahaha ;)

Ano ba yan gawa-gawa ko lang yan ah. Ayaw patusin ni Gabby e,
pang-call boy ata masyado! Hahaha pero hasty judgments aside, serbisyo araw
at gabi talaga yang si Gabby. Trust me my friends, Gabby knows no sleep.

Moreover,
Tan-tan-tandaan! Titus, Titus, Titus Tan!
Titus Tan for USC chairperson!

Ang say ko naman kay Titus, ang cute niya mga kumarz. Haha pag naglilibot kami teh
yung mga friends ko gusto siyang ikiss. Pero seriously, even before, Titus Tan na talaga ko.
Though I was more inclined to Alyansa when I was still politically unaffiliated,
ewan ko, Titus have always had that aura of being someone who has the sense of
getting things done and actually gets things done.

As for the other councilors,

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow.
-Coldplay

Sa February 25, KAISA tayo sa USC!
VOTE STRAIGHT KAISA! :)

Valentine (and) Violence

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 03:50:53 GMT

I went to the UP Fair, and I was there when the violence occurred. I was there and I saw what happened. Of course you've heard of the riot too. I don't want to talk about it again though. Let me just tell you that it was really an experience. Read my full-blown story here: LOVERAGE 3: Break the Curse.

At dahil Valentine's season, let me just share some of these things na nakatago sa aking files. Malay ko bat ako may ganyan. Ay hindi ko gawa yang mga yan, kaya nga hindi ko alam kung bakit ako may ganyan. Dinownload ko siguro at some point in my life. Yuck parang ang defensive na ewan, parang tanga lang. Hahaha.

HUHU CRY.

Ito mas maarte:

I hope not all relationships are like that :(

Anyway, hindi naman siguro.
Happy Valentine's Season! :)

AAAAND I THINK I HAVE A PROBLEM. I'm so moving out of this blog but I can't seem to do it. Help me people I think I'm attached. God. I think I'm in love with my blog. Okay, that creeped you out. Uggghhhhh. *runs off with a gun*